When I was applying for the fertility yoga teacher training, I had to fill in some forms. One of the questions was: why do you want to teach fertility yoga?
So I told the story of my birth. Which came after six long years of fertility struggles for my mum and dad. Medical procedures, endless consultations, lots of anxiety, hope and fear. Lots of longing. But must be carrying this story somewhere deep in me, because I have been drawn to fertility yoga for years.
I played with the idea many years ago and had to abandon it – life had other plans. Then it came up again for me at a moment when I didn’t quite know what to do with it. The pull was so strong, though, that I decided to take the training even without a clear plan to start teaching.
So I wrote this in the form and waited to hear back.
When the answer came it was: You are most welcome on the training. We are really happy that you want to heal your family trauma in this way.
I had never thought about it like that. Reading those words I got a bit emotional – because yes, it is my family trauma. I am who I am, and I carry my mum and dad’s journey in me. And I want to help other people on that same journey.
I sometimes think about the fact that I exist because two people wanted me with extraordinary persistence. Six years of hoping and trying and not giving up. I am the answer to that. That’s why this work is something I was always going to find my way to.
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